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(10:08 am - 11.13.2001 - crappy nite... voice mail - i feel  ) yuck. not only do i wake up feeling nauseous, but work wasn't that great either. then i get to come home this morning and listen to a message mark left me. apparently my former entry upset him and he went crazy on my voice mail. i'd type what he said in here, but i do enough swearing for enough of diaryland. this message was unbelievable! at first i didn't think he was serious, but boy, he was. and then after that message, about 20 minutes later, he left another. he apologized and told me to call him this morning. i did but he wasn't home. the first message scared me. i've never heard him get that way with me. with anyone. i don't think i should write about him anymore. when i write in here, i pretend no one reads it (and it's true). i don't like to censor myself. i'm sure if my aunt read this shit she'd cry. sorry for me having feelings. it's just what i was feeling at the time. it doesn't mean i'll feel that way forever. it doesn't even mean i meant it. it means at the time i was upset and i didn't want to make it into an issue, so i don't talk about it. i thought he knew i was upset anyhow. i did tell him to rip the card up. maybe he didn't think i was serious. i'm way overly senisitive. duh. but anyhow. i'm really upset right now, and i just wanted to leave a quick entry. i feel like crap and i'm shivering cause i still don't know how to set the thermostat. it's all digital and fucked up. i might go out tonite. doubt it. but i'm gonna leave starz a voice mail. i need to get out. even though i feel like absolute crap. fuck i don't even have any lyrics for this entry. you know i mean business ~*~liz ps. thanx to goddess tovah and of course simon for dusting off my guestbook. i love you two. thanx to simon for emailing me too. <3 << - >> if you really loved me, you'd buy me presents |
