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(9:24 am - 11.19.2002 - i hate coming up with descriptions - i feel  ) really depressed today. don't even know why. mom was supposed to pick me up at 9 to get my glasses, but, there was an "emergency" so, here i sit. my nephew had to be picked up at the police station yesterday. apparently when he got home, no one was home and the door was locked. so the bus driver took him back to the school, and the principal called the cops. and the cops filed a report against my nephews mother. this obviously wasn't the first time it's happened, so that's why it's so dramatic. so my brother had to meet with the principal this morning, thus, leaving mom without a car. so needless to say, this whole event upset my mom. but, being the selfish brat that i am, i was thinking about myself. when i was growing up, i don't remember my parents being home at all when i got home from school. and nobody cared, nobody made sure you got home ok. so what's the big deal now? mom worked until 3 and didn't get home until 4. what ever happened to latch-key kids? our door was never locked. never. have things changed so much since then? how come people weren't over protective of kids back then like they are now? i guess with all the craziness in the world, we should be just a little more than over protective with our kids. but seriously, haven't problems with society been around forever, it's just now they are much more publicized? people just aren't happy with the run of the mill abductions and abusive treatment, now we have celebrity snipers and overseas terrorists! if things have changed that much in just a few years, i fear what will happen when i'm 30. moving on. i'm afraid to check the mailbox today. i did a shitload of work for the audiovent streetteam, and whoever did the most work is supposed to get the concert tickets. i don't think the team leader likes me very much. i don't know, i just get a weird vibe from him. too bad he's also the leader for the taproot team. if i don't get the tickets, i'll be even more depressed. even though i don't think i can go to the concert at all. who's going to throw the pity party for me? yep, all this complaining and what does it get me? nothing! except a worse mood. when did i get so jealous? just a thought i don't feel like elaborating on. an elephant at the pittsburgh zoo crushed it's trainer. that's crazy stuff right there. they're not going to put the elephant to sleep cause it's endangered and all. and just a few days ago 8 sharks died. two sharks were eaten by other sharks, two died of bacterial infections and the remaining four sharks died being de-wormed. yum. de-wormed. i'll leave you with that tasty thought. maybe things are getting better-maybe things aren't so bad-don't be gone when i get home-you're all i have-if i had to explain it-i wouldn't know where to start-it's like you're falling in love while i just fall apart ~*~liz later: yeah, so i'm not going anywhere today. no glasses, no concert, nothing. sometimes life sucks. i'm such a fucking loser and i'm so fucking lonely. fuck this. << - >> if you really loved me, you'd buy me presents | 