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(8:12 am - 03.24.2002 - so much - i feel  ) thanks guys. seriously! my last entry i wrote how i mixed drugs and alcohol, and if i didn't update to be worried. seems only goddess tovah cared. hey, thanks! i feel sooooo loved! anywho. i have a ton of boring things to write about, so where to begin? huh....? 
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sometime last week mom and i went to go get my i.d. yes, 21 and i don't drive as i wrote in this guestbook. this was my second attempt at getting i.d. the last time was last summer. i didn't have 3 proof of address forms, so i wasn't able to get an i.d. then. well, almost a year later, i return. confident. ha. that faded quickly. this time i came with a fresh copy of my birth certificate, 5 documents that proved i lived where i do, and photocopy of my social security card. my number was called. i went to the desk. oh joy. i got the same guy that i dealt with during the summer. told him what i needed. showed him my documents. fuck! i needed the original social security card. not a copied one. that led to me getting hella-pissed off and storming out of the building. this led to another day, when mom and i had to go down to the social security building. oh joy of joys. about an hour later, i got a sheet of paper that basically verified that my social security number is mine. what a headache! that nite i also got my taxes done. yay! i'm getting back $714 back, or something close to it. i love tax time! hehe. good thing i'm getting a nice chunk of change back, my bank account has been dipping too low for me lately. after they withdrew the $$ for my incubus tickets i only had about $40. somewhere else in there, i only had $19. oops! yes, incubus tickets. after all that fucking time, i did get my tickets the same day i had the bullshit with the i.d. well, after all that time on the phone, i thought the tickets i had reserved weren't so bad. section a21, row b, seats 1 and 2. well. tickets arrived. figures i got another headache when i confirmed where the seats were. not section a21, but c21. ugh! damn ticketmaster. next concert, i'm just going to the box office. fuck this telephone and internet ordering! but amira (the girl i'm going) with said the seats aren't that bad. and hey, at least i'll be there. i better get to hear some s.c.i.e.n.c.e. songs though! fuck yeah!!!!! whew. do i swear too much in here? ha! fuck you! i don't care! i'll fucking swear and fucking much as i fucking want to! so there! anywho. (again) i was so happy to hear that peaches had an xcellent time at the 311 concert! i can't wait to see the pictures! but poor girl, she's sick now! get better babe! i just love to link people in here! if my stupid stereo wasn't broken i'd make steph a mix tape. and if i felt motivated enough, i'd send justin a package to somehow win a beautiful wtc necklace. i would have wished rose a happy birthday! i would give dana, jen, and lee all big hugs. well, i'd give everyone a hug, cause i love hugs! yeah, but that's all i can link cause i don't have any other friends. i'm such a loser. so what else? i was sexually harassed by patrick. all in fun though. we tease each other all the time. i once offered to give him head. but he's involved and all this crap, but that never calmed the sexual talk between us. he loves to pull my hair and say things that even i blush at. we were talking in the middle of my aisle. he somehow brought up the subject of me giving him head. but then he said he'd be embarrassed because his cock is so small. i told him i'd have to see it to believe him. he sort of walks away, but then turns around and just whips it out! lol. he was about 8 feet away, but what i saw wasn't little. jesus. he said he'd stay late this week and make plans so we could get "together." lmao. also, in the last two weeks or so, we've hired around five new people. the first being mike. some indian guy i don't really get along with. *gasp*! then there's terry. some old, weird guy. then comes matt. some 22 year old that i swear i know, but don't really. and jeff, patrick's cousin, and lastly andy. this kid that went to the same high school that i did. i didn't think i'd get along too well with andy, but he's pretty nice. but the one i get along with the most is matt. he's sweet as hell, and pretty cute. not only that, he likes my music! he likes 311!. hehehe! we're both going to the incubus concert, and sitting close by. usually i dislike training people, but this kid already works in another grocery store, so i didn't have to tell him anything! we talked about music for awhile, and i asked him ?'s. he just moved here, and he lives close by. hopefully i'll have a new friend out of this deal. mark is all freaked out by the way i was talking about him, and because i said he was cute. this leads to another topic. mark and i have a very honest relationship. if i think someone is cute, or if i have a desire to do something with someone, i end up telling mark, and vice versa. this leads to 2 problems. 1. i'm a very jealous person. the second mark tells me he even had an enjoyable conversation with someone, i think the worst, and in turn become a mega-bitch. i'm super jealous, and don't want to share my good catch with anyone. i know this is unfair, and everything, but i can't just change it. the other problem... mark pretty much allows me to do whatever i want. now, right off the bat, this isn't fair. i go off on him just when he talks to another girl, but when i talk to patrick about giving him head, etc. and when i tell mark this, he doesn't automatically flip out! after awhile, it'll hit home and he'll get a little pissed (which he has every right to...) it's just not a two way street. what's wrong with me? are other women as jealous as i am? please help me! now, don't get me wrong, i trust mark even more than i trust myself (which is scary - and great all at the same time) but anyways. please leave me a note in my guestbook if you have any advice on getting over this jealous thing. hey jealousy-and you can trust me not to think-and not to sleep around-if you don't expect too much from me-you might not be let down-cause all i really want is to be with you ~*~liz << - >> if you really loved me, you'd buy me presents |
