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(7:18 pm - 07.18.2002 - after all this time - i feel  ) this is insane. i just got this spam and apparently my new name is now: "sharice vosburgh" . oh, and another: "clyde fahy" . so you can pick. either call me sharice or clyde. i think i'm going with clyde cause it fits me so well. anyhow. i had a nice entry typed up the other day, and when i came home from work to finish it, my computer decided to go retarded on me and shut down. yeah, what else is new. like that doesn't happen every damn time i try to write a new entry, so that's why i haven't written in awhile. well, actually it's this site's fault. i can't stop playing. i played there all the time, and now i've started again. but that's the real reason i haven't written. on friday i was all set to do my friday five, but when i went the ?'s weren't posted yet. figures the one time i was actually going to be on time, it just doesn't work out. oh well, it's not important. (11:17 am) see now. i just played games for like 2 hours. god, i'm a loser. i have much better things to do. i can't believe it's already july 15. i can feel the pressure to move out. it's gonna happen soon. i found an apartment for $385. fully furnished. including utilities! i will call them today. now i feel like carolyn burnham. i will sell this house today. i will sell this house today. great, now i'm just rambling. i've had some strange dreams the last few days. nothing new there. one involved my dad leaving me in the middle of nowhere. the same dream had chris elliot and jay mohr. another involved starz and i going on vacation with ed and his family, and there was another where i was over nigella lawson�s house. i can't remember the dreams i had last nite. someone informed me that i was evil. really? i had no idea. well, we've all gotta be good at something, right? evilness just happens to be my specialty. {insert evil cackle here} so anyhow. mark is living with his brother now, and i swear, every 10 seconds he interrupts mark and i when we're on the phone. it's really aggravating and mark won't tell keith to leave him alone when he's on the phone. arrrrggggg. to the person that called thursday, around noon: i hate you. i was up for 4 hours after you called, and still you didn't leave me a message!!!! i swear to god, if i find out who it was, you'll be aware of my pure evilness. and friday was on of those days when i didn't want the phone to ring at all, and yet, it rang all day. i avoided it until about 9 pm, i missed all the calls that i wanted to take though. mom called somewhere in there, and i still haven't called her back. she's probably pissed at me. speaking of phone calls, i meant to call starz soon. i haven't seen that girl in forever. i really want to go out and drink tonite. like really, really, really badly. i have to do laundry before i go anywhere though. my mouth is totally watering for some sweet, sweet alcohol. haha. i almost never drink, so when i get in the mood to, i fulfill that need. there now the laundry is underway. yahoo! with my luck, i'll get everything all ready to go, and no one will be able to go out. really, there's only shari and starz. and my brother. no one else i know drinks. which is a good thing, i guess. (currently) yes, so i wrote all that crap a few days ago. so what. it's not like you were waiting around for me to post a new entry, right? last nite at work was hell. i freaked out too. it's a rare day when the people i work with get to witness the act of me freaking out, so they got a nice treat last nite. we have a new guy, wes, and he's slow as fuck. he's supposedly a teacher, and he's just doing this for extra money. yea, ok. i found another addictive pogo game. someone needs to block this site from my computer. maybe i'd get more things done around here. i called the number for the apartment i found, and it's already taken. i should have known. mom said if i didn't have my permit by friday she'd be pissed. well, i can't get it without her being home, cause i don't have my social security card, and i also need to go to the doctor so he can fill out this little physical form saying i won't get a seizure while i'm driving. fuck, if i have to pay for a doctor to tell me that..... well fuck it. i knew i wouldn't go out that day i wanted to drink, so i took care of that myself. i found all the parts to my blender and made some pi�a coladas. i actually finished the whole bottle of mix, which is pretty sad, cause it was full. but now last nite i got another bottle, along with some cherries. god, drinking home alone is so depressing, but it looks like that's the plan. blah. mark started training to be a manager last nite. it went pretty well, but he didn't get out of there until late. i think they're just going to make him close whenever he can. which is shit, but whatever, at least he'll have the title soon. i need to send out a few packages soon. birthdays and all. damn justin got another cell phone number. arg. i'm not even going to memorize this one. oh yeah, and i won the publishers clearing house sweepstakes. yep, i got the confirmation number and everything. ha. we had a big storm today, during which i had a dream that someone was in my house. i seriously opened my eyes every 5 seconds, but i was so tired, that they automatically closed again. it was one of those storms that take forever to roll in, but you can hear the thunder for hours, and when the storm finally comes, it doesn't last very long, but it's dark and seems violent. it was dark all day. which was great for me cause i killed myself by staying up for 26+ hours straight. and mark thinks he's tired! hah. yes, so there you go. here's your precious entry you vicious hounds. i waited-oh i-oh i-waited-but i must be too dumb to be proud-because i waited-i waited-here-woke to sounds-i prayed you were there-i fell back down-but i'm sure you still care ~*~liz lyrics applied to ..... << - >> if you really loved me, you'd buy me presents | 