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(9:14 am - 04.05.2003 - why bother? - i feel  ) so, i haven't mentioned that i've been toying with something interesting. i've never done a drug in my life.... but for some strange reason, i want to try ecstasy. weird. i doubt i will, but, whatever. i just felt like throwing that in there. heh, i even told mom i wanted to. of course, she wasn't too keen on that idea. and then i take this quiz, and i come up with this: 
ecstacy.
sex and lights, it's totally chill, you could really have fun, with this little pill.
which drug should you be hooked on? [now with pictures]
love, quizilla
coincidence? i think not! heh. and wasn't something spelled wrong in that little picture box?????!?!?!? gaurenteed?!?! ahhhh! that drives me nuts! wow. i can't believe alex katunich aka. dirk lance left incubus. that's just really strange. you can read about it here. that's like some pretty major, unexpected news. i guess it's for the best though. i already bought 2 lollapalloza tickets. now, who's going to go with me? hmm. entry #153, i have no words i've been thinking a lot lately. not speaking, just silently thinking to myself. about everything. what do i have to do to get noticed in this world? why do we place so much interest in celebrities? why do you have to look a certain way for someone to love you? where am i going to end up in life? will i ever fall in love again? will i ever stop being a bitch? how come all my friends, aren't really my friends? how come i've been let down so much? will i seriously have to sit thru a def leppard set to see 311 play live??? ok, so that last one wasn't so important, but still. when will my mind just shut up so i can just go thru the motions of life? when will i stop being so suicidal? just, when? why is it so hard for some people to smile? blah. why can't i decide what i want to do? ok, i'm so done with this. why does the new linkin park cd make me want to do things that i'm not sure i'm ready to do? ha, i'm such a fuckup. sometimes i would give anything to be something more than nothing ~*~liz ps. i had a dream that saddam was my next door neighbor... but he was really nice, and had an evil cat. what's wrong with me? and yesterday some telemarketer called, and i just said loudly: "saddam is my neighbor!!!!" and hung up. surprisingly, i'm not in jail... yet. << - >> if you really loved me, you'd buy me presents | 