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(5:57 pm - 05.28.2002 - bowie is a genius - i feel  ) surely my power will go out while i'm trying to write this. it just got pitch dark outside and the wind is blowing heavily. hope everyone had a nice memorial day. i was just reminded of how alone i am here. nothing new with that. i'm having a reoccurring dream about david bowie. in the first dream i met him and briefly chatted. now in the dream last nite, i was walking around downtown, looking for mark and starz, and david showed up behind me. gave him a kiss on each cheek and introduced him to mark. then iman showed up and i also kissed her. weird, the screen just shut off, but nothing else did. that doesn't make sense. anyhow... david and iman left shortly, and i was explaining to mark who david bowie is. but suddenly david showed up behind us and heard everything i said. thank god i didn't say anything bad about him. i told mark he was a genius. in the beginning of the dream, mark and i were just cuddling on the couch watching a movie, but he decided he was tired and he had to go home. but then we got lost in pittsburgh. i don't think i know anyone else who is as tired as mark. i'm not saying it's a bad thing, but dayum. maybe he should take after me and have a marathon sleep day, when you sleep for over 12 hours. although, that's been really hard for me to do lately. tuesday. the mole is on tonite. yay. damn. the storm is already over. nothing good lasts that long. i guess that explains some other things too. (whoa, that is way vague, but at least i understand it. sorry.) i actually heard from justin today. he called around noon, and i ignored it then. he left a message and gave me his mom's number again. i got to talk to him for awhile. he's mad at me for something he thinks i did. i don't know what the big deal is. he left in quite a hurry. i don't know what's up with him anymore. can a blacklight make you sick? i accidentally left my black light on last nite from like 1 am - 8 am. can 7 hours in blacklight exposure make you sick or anything? i just feel weird. i really don't feel like working tonite. i had an awful nite on sunday, but then ed let me punch him. that made me feel a little bit better. he knows i have absolutely no anger management skills. why am i even writing an entry? i have nothing to say. does anyone want to buy me a pinball machine? heck, i'd never leave the house if i had one. why is it when i'm waiting for something to come in the mail, it takes forever? but the phone bill comes right on time. damn u.s. postal system. can't they ever get it together? (05.29.2002 - 7:21 am) well, well. looks like my freezer and i are back to playing games. i came home and the door was freaking wide open, and the whole floor was soaked. it must have came open right when i left for work. damnit. and i had just bought some tasty hot pockets. damn you freezer, damn you! figures, the 2 episodes of the mole that were on last nite, were just from the start of the show. i get to watch 2 more re-runs before actually seeing a 'new' episode. damn you abc, damn you. last nite at work was glorious! i actually had help, and we milked it as much as we could. i haven't done that little work in so long there. it was quite nice, because i know tomorrow we're in for it. it definitely won't be pretty. ed wasn't even there tonite. that really sucked. marilyn is so jealous that he and i get along so well. i'm snatching up all her men. hehe. i just can't help myself, they're so irresistible. (if you saw them, you'd sense the sarcasm here.) damn you men, damn you. marilyn's bringing pizza tomorrow. yay. and my mike will be there too. we had an ice fight last nite. that's always fun. i was just mad cause i had a bad hair day. ugh. damn you hair, damn you. i feel like reading more of my book and going to bed. it's gonna be a long week. happy hump day everyone. (well, happy hump day liz, since i'm the only one that reads my diary. thank you liz.) man, i am going to end up like my mother. scary. damn you mental illnesses, damn you to hell! why does the music from commercials always get stuck in my head!?!?? damn you sly advertising skills, damn you! days go by and still i think of you-days when i couldn't live my life without you-days go by and still i think of you-days when i couldn't live my life without you ~*~liz did you not notice that the hint a few entries back was for you? i want to feel irresistible. << - >> if you really loved me, you'd buy me presents | 